February and Frozen 2026

This winter has been brutal compared to what we are use to. We went to a cabin in the mountains of Kentucky and it was so far up we were able to make it down, but our son and his girlfriend got stuck 2 more days. Then a week later barley got their vehicle down. Then my husband's car bit the dust. In the past that would have sent me over the edge after and an already stressful week. I would have gotten all upset, cried, and went to bed for days. But we just found a plan to make things work. It's not the best and financially it can't be long term, but it's working and I'm just thankful we had that option. I finally finished my book and working on the editingnow. I have pushed the release date to May 2026. Fingers crossed no more postponing and can be done and released before summer is in full swing. Super bowl, holidays, etc all look very different and sometimes lonely. Our kids are grown and have their own things as well as jobs etc so it's just Scott and I alot. Not that is notbad, it's just different. We are useto having kids, friends, and family around all the time and that has all changed. We are coming upon a year since my bff Gina passed away. And I miss her so much. She was so much to me. I wasn't sure how I would survive without her and it has not been an easy year. Grief doesn't go away, it changes, but it is always there. I know so many that have dealt with this more than their fair share and my heart breaks for them, knowing what this did to me. This is also a big reason I am so big on making memories, having fun, and enjoying life as much as possible everyday. Yesterday I spent from 9 am til 6pm preparing documents for tax prep, nothing was going right, password, scanner, old phone numbers linked to tax portal and people who simply weren't understanding my need. I was so frustrated and was about ready to throw in the towel, a few cuss words, and of course attitude. But my husband came home and was there trying to help and keep me calm. So instead I spewed a few non needed statements which I wish I hadn't but it's still improvement for me. I didn'ttotally blow my gasket, shut down, and go to bed like I would have in the past. I hammered through it and got it done. Not how I wanted to spend an entire day off. But it had to be done. Today I'm resting and just relaxing. But even a year ago I would have still been spiraling from yesterday. I am so thankful for my growth and healing. Perfect no, I have a long history of trauma, bad responses, not good examples set, and not being allowed or taught how to process feelings both good and bad. A bad day isn't a bad life but when your nervous system can not handle a stressful day one can unpack and stay there for far too long. The key is not to unpack. Feel the feelings. I have also found if I calmly voice what I am feeling and it is not directed at the other person it helps us both. My husband did have to say once last night that he wasn't the reasonI was upset and was trying to help. But he saud that calmy, so I didnt process those words as an attack.